Inside Ruth's Mind....

2004-02-22T00:45:00.000-05:00

what the fuck!!

2004-02-19T00:02:00.000-05:00

haha... so i havent updated in a while yea i know...so anyway.. noting really going on lately except that mr jon and i no longer date i was reading before how excited i was to be with him...but now all that excitement has faded away.. it was for the best and iknow if allen ragasa reads this he is going to tease me soo much on friday or whenever i see him...

but the good news is i met this really sweet guy, but he lives so far away:( why do all the people that i like and have a lot of feelings for live sooo far awya?

I know i mispelled stuff oh well... i am to lazy to go back and edit

2003-12-09T21:19:00.000-05:00

So does anyone actually visit this place anymore! I know I havent updated in forever.. i just have been extremely busy with school and stuff and with JON! Wow I love that guy sooo much! HEhe so anyway nothing really new exceot that i went o to the Cradle Of Filth COncert and i was with Jon so the experince was great! I had so much fun!! I already miss Jon but at least he is coming for New years and stuff!! YAY! I love him... ill update later!

2003-10-24T23:05:00.000-04:00

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Visit!!!!!!!!

2003-10-11T19:53:00.000-04:00

2003-10-07T22:02:00.000-04:00

Finally Upadating

Ok so not much really going on in my life you know just tha same old boring shit.... Well I have been sick the past few days...and you know sometimes you wish people would be a little bit more caring, but no, they rather do something else, oh well I have my reasons for saying taht but I dont care haha, shit half of the time I dont even make sense, and yea it is hard to understand myself, but then again if I wasnt such a nerd than I wouldnt be so unique right?! hehe, Lately I have been having so many mixed feelings...its like I dunnop what it is like but its like soemthing I just dont know how to put it into words..heh..yea Well there is this one problem..There is this guy Steven who loves me to death, and he thinks I love him to death too, but I dont and I feel terrible for making him think that i do but i mean this has been going on for so much time that I feel bad for telling him that I do love him but only as a friend and nothing more, well he has been in Iraq and he called me today to tell me that he was in california and in 2 weeks he is coming to see me and that he is extremley excited.. and I think when he comes see me I am truly going to tell him exactly how I feel about him, and how much i do want to be his friend...I just want to be there for him all the time, but I dont want a realtionship with him.... But anyway on to other things... I had this horrible dream last night, whe i woke up i felt so dirty and so nasty, it was weird, ok so here it goes, I was going into a room with a girl and I guess we were like prostitutes or something, and we were waiting for some guys to come in and I guess we were going to have like a foursome or something, but then the chick and i were making out and i was kising her everywhere and she was just lying there and i started to like want to finger her but then i saw her face and it was my cousin Veronica, I jusmped out of the bed and than realized she was dead....that was a horrible dream...and i still feel so dirty yuck! Man Saturday Static X at CW....urgh that really sucks that I cannot go! man this si so funny... This is a story to tell someone when they're high.

Ladies and gentlemen, I stand before you to stand behind you to tell you something I know nothing about. Thursday, which is Good Friday, we're having a Father's Day party for mother's only. Admission is free, pay at the door, pull out a chair and sit on the floor.

Late one night in the middle of the day, two dead soldiers got up to fight. Back to back they faced each other, pulled out their swords and shot one another. A deaf policeman heard the noise, got up and shot the twice dead boys. If you don't believe me, ask the blind man who saw it all, through a knothole in a wooden brick wall.

Ok so anyway.... I am planning on making Ruths Top 50 sexiest men list..hehe just a stupid side thing to keep me unbored and entertained, while being ignored by the world,....

ok so byeee for now I will try to write tommroow! about my health condition I forgot to add, i have a lump on my boob and stuff, and i am not going to know exactly what it is until tommorow! hmm oh wells wish me me luck, bye... I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU JAKE! I MISS YOU!

2003-09-05T18:54:00.000-04:00

i wish my mom would hurry up I have no idead wehre she is but i really hope she hurries up... i havent been ablt to contact Jon today...urgh...I have butterflies in my stomach,..

2003-08-31T21:28:00.000-04:00

Hey I am very sorry that I havent updated ina while.. yea well a lot of shit has been going on...lets see nothing exciting on the 9th or 10th, but on the 11th wow that was the best day of my life, I experienced something so wonderful that i was depriving myslef of and I am ver glad that I was able to shre it with the love of my life Jon! you guys have no fucking idea how much I love this guy! I really do... the following days after the 11th were great until the 13th when my Jon had to leave to go back to dallas, but that is cool I know that isnt the last time i am going to see him!! Well Friday the 22nd was my Birthday and I turned 18 cant wait to hit the boobie bars hehe so anyway...I had to leave early from work the other day becasue i was in so much fucking pain yea but i ahve a feelong they thought iwas faking it, but yea that day i went to the Er, and they cut me open...hehe it was really painful when they put the anesthisia or however the fuck you spell it, I missed school for 3 days i think... but anyway right now my best friend or so fucking called best friend is being a fucking asshole hes telling Jon lies about me and that hurts so much becasue he says hees fucking in love with him but i know hes not he justs wants his dickl ike he told me before leo_de_crescent: i just want his thing] leo_de_crescent: ha que sabra?? urghh it really makes me fucking mad
i hate that he is fucking doing this and it makes me mad when he constanlty keeps bringing it up... I dunno but it just makes my blood boil with hatred, why cant he find himself someone else, you know sometimes I feel like breaking up with Jon so Jesus can have him and so he can be happy but I cant becasue I love Jon with all my heart and I dont want to let go of him ever...and it reall just fucking hurts that Jesus is fucking doing this to me he is supposed to be my FUCKING BEST FRIEND!!!!!!! URGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like killing him now!!!!! Well yesterday i almost killed my sister becasue i just got so fucking mad and i had so many fucking bottle up feeling usntil i ent off and i really also felt like killing myself and i wouldve proabably stabbed my sister or myself if it wasnt for my other sister, so i threw chairs and i broke a window... yea i think that is pretty bad but i dint mean to, i mean my familly is going throught a shitty time right now half of my fucking family is suicidal, and i really have no support from anyone but Jon and I hate it that Jesus is not supporting me at this hard time for us instead he is making things worser and i wish he would be a little more understanding..... I am sooo fucking stressed right now...and I think he kinda likes it.... shit i want to fucking get away from everyone except jon of course!

2003-08-08T20:36:00.000-04:00

What Kind of Relationship is Right For You?

2003-08-08T20:00:00.000-04:00

Well nothing good is happening but I did spend time talking to Will he is very awesome and so is his gf hahah i am blank bye bye

2003-08-05T22:36:00.000-04:00

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2003-08-05T18:40:00.000-04:00

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2003-08-05T17:08:00.000-04:00

Been so busy

I know I havent written in this thing lately, so here I go again, last Saturday I spent my whole shift with nymphoJeff we were having a lot of fun changing the sopa dispensers and hearing his corny jokes, and well it was soo much fun I went into the guys restroom and he went into the girls restroom, when he saw the girls restroom he was like WHOA! I AM MOVING IN lol and he was describing how cool he was going to redecorate the restroom and make it his aprtment, I mean who would want to live in a womens restroom in AMC?! so anyways i cut him accidentally removing one of those soap dispenser thingys, and he dared me to lick the blood so naturally I did, hehe... I like going up the ELE, I remember I got stuck in there with someone I dont remember who I just remember everyone laughing at me because they could hear me scream, hahah, so yea Sunday I took Timbos shift, it was pretty slow the whole day, after that I went to see American Wedding with Orlando and Cindy, that was a funny movie, then we went to see Bad Boys II that was a good movie but it seemed really long lol, If only Jesus knew that I went to see american wedding without him he will kill me oh well, hahaha, I havent been able to check my stupid email I have no idea why, I try but everytime I get to that page it freezes it and i have to restart, and I've tried it on different browsers and it does the same thing, I am listening to Andrea Bocelli, he is a cool guy, I am soo happy today and today I am so very emotional, I feel so good, I am so happy, and I am usually so depressed, I am so happy, so happy, so damn happy, it makes Jesus want to throw up lol.... I am so in love, Ive never been this way beofre and it feels so great, It seems like a dream, wow this is so great.....

2003-08-02T14:36:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I made a guy feel really bad, and in the end it made me feel terrible, I guess I should've told him sooner the truth, but he scared me everytime he said that he wanted to kill himself and I was the only thing making im happy, I dont want to be put in situations like that, I feel very guilty for not telling him soon, but he never asked and well I should've told him, but I just dont know what to do I feel terrible, and the way he always says he is so suicidal, I am afraid he might kill himslef for my stupidity, I feel so guilty for not telling him sooner but I do feel relieved that I did tell him, that way he can begin to forget about me...

I MISS JON!

2003-07-31T17:56:00.000-04:00

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2003-07-29T12:19:00.000-04:00

FORLORN HOPE-AFTER FOREVER
Hear it and tell me what you think of it.....

I Am gonna add sound in a few mins....

An old man is proud
but behind his modest smile lies the grief
Only one picture of his brave son remains

It seems that the vicious circle
Can never be broken through

The hopeful ones gathered their strength
To achieve the apparent impossible
But all plans seem to be in vain

As a soldier of Allah
He`s an example for the others
On his bloody way to immortality

It seems that the vicious circle
Can never be broken through
Because old wounds are reopened every time

This Intifada as a device
To thwart the peace negotiations

He can rely on a reward in the hereafter
Eternal paradise awaits him

Pugnacity
With our blood
Show no mercy
With our soul
Die for heaven
An eye for an eye
Burn to let them...
Suffer for all their actions

We will not move an inch
They won`t play in our hands
We will not tolerate those who defy

We will not hesitate
To start an attack again
If you undermine the agreement

Let them suffer!
Stop to let them suffer!

2003-07-28T20:15:00.000-04:00

BANG BANG BANG

2003-07-28T19:56:00.000-04:00

IDIOTH

Has anyone ever heard of Group X besided Jimmy the IDIOTH, heheh well they are a laugh download some of their songs, they are funny especially that BANG BANG BANG song hahah

I am going to put pictures up in a few days ok...

2003-07-27T22:51:00.000-04:00

No one has said what the truth should be
And no one decided that I'd feel this way
If you felt as I
Would you betray yourself

But, you can't deny how I feel
And you can't decide for me

No one should fear what they cannot see
And no ones to blame it's just hypocrisy
It's written in your eyes
And how I despise myself

But, you can't deny how I feel
And you can't decide for me

And it's your heart
That's so wrong
Mistaken
You'll never know
Your feathered sacred self

But, you can't deny how I feel
And you can't decide for me

And you can't deny how I feel
And why should you decide for me

2003-07-27T22:36:00.000-04:00

How DIRTY do I talk online
BTW I only talk to Jimmy like that becasue he is a retard and noe of it is true either...

vXglassXv: sup
DecantedSoul: hey
DecantedSoul: I am depressed
vXglassXv: whatcha doin?

DecantedSoul: i want to die...
vXglassXv: y?
vXglassXv: hehe me too
vXglassXv: why -_-
DecantedSoul: i got into a fight with my mom
DecantedSoul: and she hates me
DecantedSoul: everyone does
vXglassXv: why?
vXglassXv: what did you do?
DecantedSoul: I didnt do anything
vXglassXv: I hurt my wrist ..
DecantedSoul: sorry...
vXglassXv: then why fight?
DecantedSoul: becasue she is a bitch
vXglassXv: well...besides the obvious
DecantedSoul: lol
vXglassXv: o,O
vXglassXv: I'm sorry
vXglassXv: ::hugs::
vXglassXv: I went skating..feel...now my wrist hurts...can't do pushups...or even shift gears..
DecantedSoul: sory
DecantedSoul: sorry
DecantedSoul: i am
vXglassXv: and I hit my back...and my cracked rib...so now It hurts to live
vXglassXv: lol
vXglassXv: I know
DecantedSoul: lol
vXglassXv: ;-)
vXglassXv: be happy
vXglassXv: I luvs ya
vXglassXv: :-)
vXglassXv: want me to take her out?
DecantedSoul: yay!!!
DecantedSoul: yes
vXglassXv: ok how do you want it done
DecantedSoul: i dunno you pick
vXglassXv: sloppy?
vXglassXv: clean
vXglassXv: attempted suicide..
DecantedSoul: hmmm
DecantedSoul: the 2nd
vXglassXv: how much will be willing to pay for materials?
DecantedSoul: 1$
vXglassXv: ..
vXglassXv: ok...ice pic from dollar store o.O
DecantedSoul: LOL
vXglassXv: wanna make out?
DecantedSoul: uhh no, sorry!
DecantedSoul: i must stay faithful
vXglassXv: damn it
vXglassXv: damn yew!
DecantedSoul: HAHAH
vXglassXv: I'll never tell ;-)
vXglassXv: j/k
DecantedSoul: haha
DecantedSoul: but i would feel guilty
vXglassXv: pssh
vXglassXv: you and your "feelings"
DecantedSoul: :'(
vXglassXv: hehe
vXglassXv: j/k
DecantedSoul: :-D
vXglassXv: :-*
DecantedSoul: 8-)
vXglassXv: so..
DecantedSoul: sooo
vXglassXv: yeeeewz a hooooo
vXglassXv: lol j/k
DecantedSoul: fuck you@
vXglassXv: aww
vXglassXv: friend said it sounded funny
vXglassXv: just kidding o.O
vXglassXv: OH GUESS WHAT!
DecantedSoul: lol
DecantedSoul: WHAT?!?!?!

vXglassXv: I WIN!
DecantedSoul: FUCK YOU!!
DecantedSoul: DICKHEAD!!
vXglassXv: PUSSYFACE!
vXglassXv: YEEEEWZ A HOOOE
vXglassXv: lol
DecantedSoul: DICKSUCKER
vXglassXv: j/k
vXglassXv: o.O
vXglassXv: whoa whoa whoa
vXglassXv: hold on now lil pilgram
vXglassXv: yeeeewz a hooooe
DecantedSoul: WHEN YOU FART YOU WHISTLE
vXglassXv: j/k
vXglassXv: pussy eater
vXglassXv: no..more like a ...**pooooot**
DecantedSoul: AT LEAST I DONT GET DICKS UP MY ASS

DecantedSoul: BTW LESBIANS ARE HOT!
vXglassXv: nor do I
vXglassXv: btw I KNOW THIS!
DecantedSoul: I WON
vXglassXv: pssh
DecantedSoul: HAHAHAHAHA

vXglassXv: in your dream world
vXglassXv: biatch
DecantedSoul: NOPE

DecantedSoul: YOU GOT WHOOPED
DecantedSoul: STD MAN
vXglassXv: PSSSH
DecantedSoul: MANWHORE!
vXglassXv: ....SLUTFIST
vXglassXv: ANALMONGER
DecantedSoul: FUCKFACE!
vXglassXv: LIMPDICK
vXglassXv: CAT MONGER!
DecantedSoul: I DONT HAVE ONE!! YOU DO!
DecantedSoul: I WON AGAIN!
DecantedSoul: OH YEA!!
vXglassXv: WELL I FUCKED YOUR MOM
vXglassXv: AND SHE LIKED IT!
DecantedSoul: GOOD!
vXglassXv: O.o
vXglassXv: well...when your out gay bashing
vXglassXv: I'll be at your home fucking your mom
vXglassXv: ...in the ASS
vXglassXv: lol
vXglassXv: DOLLA DOLLA BILL YALL
DecantedSoul: good youll keep her entertained while i go fuck your dad!!!!
vXglassXv: my dad looks like me!
DecantedSoul: YOUR LIMPDICK DAD, oh who does that remind me of?!!!
DecantedSoul: YOU
vXglassXv: your manwhore
DecantedSoul: LIMPDICK
DecantedSoul: runs in the family!?
vXglassXv: NOPE
DecantedSoul: yea
vXglassXv: NOPE
vXglassXv: nope
DecantedSoul: mr. 3 inches long
vXglassXv: nope
vXglassXv: o.O
DecantedSoul: cant satisfy a woman
vXglassXv: try...nvm I don't want you to know but its 3x3
DecantedSoul: LMAO
DecantedSoul: you wish
DecantedSoul: its more like 9/3
vXglassXv: o.O
vXglassXv: ok ok I'll just show you :-*
DecantedSoul: NO, I dont want to feel sorry for you quite yet...
vXglassXv: gah
DecantedSoul: I WON!!!!
vXglassXv: in never never land
vXglassXv: cause you will never win
vXglassXv: biatch
DecantedSoul: I WON

DecantedSoul: SORE FUCKING LOSER!!!!
vXglassXv: sore from fucking you mom!
DecantedSoul: HAHAH YOU CANT GET SORE YOUR PENIS IS TO SMALL TO FEEL
vXglassXv: o.O
DecantedSoul: HAHAHAHAHA
vXglassXv: u seem to like to talk about my penis alot
DecantedSoul: Maybe you should get a sex change!
vXglassXv: maybe YOU should
vXglassXv: Bullah!
DecantedSoul: if everyone knew how samll it was everyone would be talking abou tit
vXglassXv: it's not small
DecantedSoul: I am perfectly well, thank you
vXglassXv: unlike your chest!
DecantedSoul: hahaha
vXglassXv: your chest in concave!
DecantedSoul: have you seen it
DecantedSoul: HAHAWHAH
vXglassXv: nope
DecantedSoul: try 32 D!
vXglassXv: have you SEEN IT?
vXglassXv: pssh
DecantedSoul: LMAO
vXglassXv: I have 38 JJK
DecantedSoul: SEX CHANGE
DecantedSoul: GAY!
vXglassXv: yea you should...
DecantedSoul: you are GAY
DecantedSoul: you should
vXglassXv: get rhemed o.O
DecantedSoul: you nee dit more
DecantedSoul: youd like it more!
vXglassXv: lol
vXglassXv: yeeewz a hoooe
DecantedSoul: is that all you can say?!
vXglassXv: yea...friends made me forget what I was gonna say
vXglassXv: oh
vXglassXv: !
DecantedSoul: LMAO
vXglassXv: no thx
vXglassXv: I don't wanna bleed for a week and still live!
vXglassXv: that's just not right!
DecantedSoul: they arent readint his right?!
vXglassXv: of course they are
DecantedSoul: haha proves that we are stronger
DecantedSoul: LOL
DecantedSoul: and can withstand more pain than you will ever feel!
vXglassXv: pssh
vXglassXv: I have to live with women!
vXglassXv: that's true pain!
vXglassXv: *shudders in a corner*
DecantedSoul: Oh so you rather be with men
vXglassXv: o.O
vXglassXv: no!
DecantedSoul: like to get it from behind
DecantedSoul: thats what it sounds like
vXglassXv: you want me to do things to you like the sun and the moon...idiot
DecantedSoul: I WON AGAIN!
DecantedSoul: LMAO
DecantedSoul: you are sooo stupid
vXglassXv: you say
vXglassXv: Jimmy touch me down I like that
DecantedSoul: BANG BANG BANG!!
vXglassXv: no
vXglassXv: I have no time for you
vXglassXv: too many women
DecantedSoul: LMAO
vXglassXv: all i want BANG BANG!
vXglassXv: bang*
DecantedSoul: LMAO
DecantedSoul: NYMPHO.....
DecantedSoul: STD MAN
vXglassXv: I KNOW WANT TO TALK TO YOU
vXglassXv: ALL I WANT
vXglassXv: BANG BANG BANG
DecantedSoul: LMAO
DecantedSoul: that shit was soo fucking funny
DecantedSoul: DID YOU memorize that?!
vXglassXv: of course...idioth
DecantedSoul: HAHA YOU HAVE NO LIFE!
vXglassXv: yes I do
DecantedSoul: IDIOT!
vXglassXv: I'm listening to them haha
vXglassXv: go dl group x
vXglassXv: that's them funny
vXglassXv: Idioth
DecantedSoul: no really?!!
DecantedSoul: haha
vXglassXv: aww..
DecantedSoul: why do we always fight?!
DecantedSoul: HAHA
vXglassXv: cause you want me o.O
DecantedSoul: NO I WANT JON!
vXglassXv: too bad
vXglassXv: you get me!
vXglassXv: >.<
DecantedSoul: remember nobody wnats you
DecantedSoul: Too bad I will never go with you
vXglassXv: gewd!
vXglassXv: **dies a lil**
DecantedSoul: YES!
DecantedSoul: I WON

2003-07-27T08:07:00.000-04:00

To Allen

I am really really sorry that I called you JON, please dont be mad at me, but I can't help thinking of him all the time, You know how much Jon means to me... I am really sorry, so stop being an ass.... ;)

2003-07-26T14:33:00.000-04:00

Also if anyone is interested on going to the Superna Street Team meeting email me there will be free beer, food, etc...

Sonnemadchen@msn.com

2003-07-26T14:20:00.000-04:00

Well I am not going in to work until 4 I just traded my shift with Karly... I went to the theatre to go sign the paper, I think the new system is gay, but of course its much more secure... So I am here bored once more... I finished cleaning the house, which of course is not going to be good enough for my dear mother, hmm... what to do... Poor steven is depressed with 3 heavy anvils aka GIRLS....no names.... I was thinking earlier, you know people read my thingy and they are gonna think I am gay, but then I was like when did I start caring what people thought of me.... I am listening to Portishead, they are awesome... yea it makes me feel good and sleepy, I want it to rain, I wish it would rain everyday, I think grey skies are beautiful, it makes every other color stand out like green.....yea green is nice..... OMG yesterday well actually todaylike a 6 am guess who called, yep it was JUSTIN, urgh! He was crying...he was saying that he was sorry and that he wanted me back, and well he was just whining so of course I hung up and went back to sleep, I hope he got the idea, and doesn't start calling me every minute of the freaking day, he really annoyed me, and he hurt me sooo much, So he deserves the same, i know I shouldn't even be wishing that, well.... I do. haha I like that song WATERBABY by PORTISHEAD.... I hate birds they are boring, I am going to get a cat without my mother knowing... DONT DECLAW CATS ITS PAINFUL TO THEM AND IN SOME COUNTRIES ITS INHUMANE!!!!! anyway.... I want to move away....

2003-07-26T10:00:00.000-04:00

My sisters ex-husband got stabbed yesterday 7 times, for a stupid reason, I was really shaky, I hate violence, there is no need for it... Well at least he is ok... Yesterday was really retarded... Jesus was here and we were acting like goofs, He is really gay, he wont admit it, but it's ok... he needs time... That just reminded me of some lesbian experinces I had, like the crazy dressing room orgy, hehe, and the night this girl spent the night at my house, and the other one in the girls locker room, I've actually been farther witha girl than with a guy, I guess I was traumatized by a certain guy... hmmm... oh well... I really really want to be with Jon right now, he makes me extremely happy... I wanted to see Jake yesterday for a reason but he RO all week, but at least I got to see Karly!! I saw Jessie yesterday also, she is soo funny.... she is really awesome, Steven.... well he is just a big dork that looks like a big teddy bear, I feel like huggin him....hehe, Yesterday was fun I gave Allen and Jessie kisses on the cheek, they learned a pick up line in Spanish "Dame un beso en la mejilla" I got a kiss from Allen.....go me! haha.... So anyway I have to go in to work at 1 I am C side usher, I like being usher... Yesterday I realized the nerdiness of Jeff did never wear off, yesterday he reminded me of something, like a big baby, that bearly learned how to walk, He said he was on Mushrooms, or whatever that is, and he was happy to go watch SK3D, Jeff is the biggest idiot I've met, He is really obssesed with having sex too bad nobody else wants to have sex with him but his hand.... Robbie, Jason and I were making fun of that yesterday, Hey does Eugene still work at AMC?! I havent seen him!! I saw Daniela yesterday, she is like the coolest girl at AMC, we have a lot in common and it is so easy and great to talk to her, well anyway she was onher break and she came and gave me a big hug, and she was updating me on whats been going on with her..... I am sooooo mad that Michelle got fired, she was like one of the coolest OC's..... I cant believe Parry and Gillote are together.... No wonder I always see them together.... I really hate being usher porter, it is soo lame....
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2003-07-25T11:25:00.000-04:00

I LUV HTML!!

2003-07-25T10:15:00.000-04:00

I decided to change from blurty to this blog thingy becasue it lets me do more stuff and I can edit the settings and make it more like I want it to be.....